saya masih ok

sentap kan? tapi takpe, saya ok.



walau terasa macam mane pown, senyum =)

takpe, im ok. cakapla apa pown, kutukla apa pown, saya masih ok

kenangan dolu dolu

tengah godek godek gambar, tetiba ternampak gmbar nih. teringat pulak kenangan lama. 5days tuh. paling lama pernah masuk hospital. wink wink*

tapi sayang, tak jumpa lak gmbr motor yg hancur depan.

sekarang, if naik motor, esp angah yg bawak, masyaallah. istighfar byk2.

and, tak boleh bawak motor belakang lori. tak kira la lori beso ke lori kecik ke, trauma mak nak!

pengajaran; bawak motor jgn berangan!

*bengkak gile jari tuh

mistake lagi.

what are you doing farah? uve make a BIG MISTAKE! again.

saya ok =)

i will be okay. insyaallah =)

memangla bende tuh still ade, tak penah hilang pown, but as long as you're happy, i'll be happy too

=)

smile!

im so happy to see u smile again. perhaps, sth like this?

very cute.

and, selalu kan la senyum macam nih ye =)

bertahan lagi

sem.depan.perlu.berdepan.dengan.die.seorang.and.i.will.be.the.only.target.if.there.is.anything.

missing.

haihh. maybe nmpk mcm bukan masalah besar, tp kalow tanye tuh kat depan org luar, adoyai, mane nak letak muka? fine, memang dah lama berlaku but suddenly teringat and yes, malu gile. am i that bad? aku belum kebulur sampai tahap nak amik makanan ko. setakat roller coaster kecik tuh, meh aku tolongkan belikan.ok?

and my first time beli kek ikan utk buat nasi goreng and still tanye jugak? eh hello? tak hadapla nak makan mknn kau tuh. len kali beli pape taruk name ye mcm kat seseri dulu. senang, takde orang nak curik makanan kau.eh hello sosej aku yg tetiba jadi sikit tuh pown aku tak cakap pape la.

dont try to do that again next sem. kalow tak, mintak maaf awal2 kalow mulut laser dengan volume 10 nih kene kat kau.

sory.

nak tlg tapi tak mampu

bila seorang kawan dalam kesusahan, niat di hati memang nak tolong. nak sangat2. but the problem is i dont know how?

tenangkan die? by listening, boleh?

give advice? no, im not gud

so how?

why i cant be a good friend? a friend that can give help to the?

haihh~

first day again.

today, first day i work as account clerk. fuhhh. betol2 kene dengan my course. wow, excited sangat. sebab? yela, first time nih keje yg betol2 ade kaitan dengan account. sebelum2 nih mmg jarang sgt yg ade kaitan. yg kat the store jela ade sikit2, purchasing clerk.

and i feel sooooooooooooo boring. sebab? tak byk pown keje nak buat. tapi bos sporting abis! hahaha caya la bos!

sebabnya, dah kul 3++pm, and he said, wahh rajinnye, and he said, simpanla utk esok pulak. hahaha terbaekkk!

ok,lah maw tido. mengantok. mlm nanti ke mcd pulak.

ciao!

nebes sangat nih

ade lagi 3jam sebelum start keje baru. and yes, of course la nervous. sgt2 nih. dup dap dup dap nih haaaa.

and alhamdulillah, i got another one. so my life will be very2 pack, but insyaallah takla busy mane because as far as i concern, keje account tuh mcm tak busy pown. boss siap ckp mmg tak byk keje sgt, and boleh la nak ber-facebook. wahhh terbaek la bos! hahaha

and sekarang just risau yg mlm nih. i just afraid kalow sgt2 busy. hope my body can handle all.

fuhh fuhhhhhh!

sekarang, i guess i should get some sleep so that nanti tak mengantok sgt =)

alhamdulillah

alhamdulillah. terima kasih ya allah atas rezeki yg Kau beri.

berikan aku kekuatan utk menepuh segalanya.

aminn. =)

hujan lagi

hari nih hujan, like yesterday, lebih kurang waktu yg sama jugak.

and i just remembered semalam bawak motor dlm hujan, lebat ye, bukan renyai2, siap berguruh kilat lagi.

fuhh. takut!

guruh boleh tahan lagi, but not kilat. takut laaaa!

hujan bawa rahmat kan? at least kurang la panas kat malaysia nih. dan mengurangkan jerebu. hari tuh balik shah alam, mmg jerebu. dan panas sgt!

ok ini ramalan cuaca utk semenyih, which is mmg pown sama

Pagi : Tiada Hujan

Petang : Hujan curah

Malam : Tiada Hujan

Minimum : 24 °C

Maksimum : 34 °C ok yg nih pulak utk shah alam Pagi : Mendung Petang : Ribut petir Malam : Tiada Hujan Minimum : 25 °C Maksimum : 34 °C ribut petir? menakutkan! tapi kita semua harus bersyukur sebab tgglkan di malaysia. and alhamdulillah hujan nih turun dapat kurangkan haba panas kat malaysia =) ciao.

not all has happy ending

kan?

ive just read this cerpen, it has a sad ending, and yes, i almost cry.

and i guess, the same thing happen to me, kan?

im not that lucky la.

haihh~

my name is FARAH SUHAIDA

why people were so hard to pronounce my name?

look and spell it slowly and carefully.

FARAH SUHAIDA.

susah sangat ke? sampai tergeliat lidah tuh nak sebut. nama melayu, bukan name french yg susah nak sebut tuh. adoyai.

hopefully..

kali nih, berharap sgt dapat. tak kesahla jauh or dekat, janji dapat.

aminn.

my first day!

im not that kind of person yang makan ubat when i have to eat.

tp sekarang, i have to know sume ubat2.

itula, nak jadi pharmacist, pihak universiti taknak terima.

tgk sekarang, terpaksala perah otak nih. haihh

kalau simpan boleh menangis

thats what i feel rite now. i really need someone to talk to.

can i have someone?

i guess no one.

=(

menyesal? no im not

menyesal is not a good word, sebab macam tak reda dengan qada' dan qadar allah. yes, im always remind myself to never ever feel regret. everything happen is my biggest mistake and i should not do it again and again.

no, im not regret to go there. it just like my mistake, again. aihhh.

kekadang rasa macam my brain nak meletup je, padahal masalah bukannya sebesar klcc pown. but still, bila fikir pasal that problemsssss rase macam tak cukup je brain yg allah kasi nih utk berfikir, and y? please farah, answer that!

*tutup muka dengan bantal sambil jerit puas puas. relief? a bit.*

kerja? aihh. kadang kadang apa yg kita plan, langsung tak menjadi kan?

yeahh!

tahniah farah, anda telah membuat satu lagi penukaran template blog anda.

sekarang nampak lebih cerah.

and yeah, we talks! and lets talk sampai lebam =p

andai aku..

yes, andainya me, myself adalah seekor kucing, aww cute nye! kucing yg bulu nya sangat kembang mengembang! aww! *euww macam nyah dah.haha*

what purpose for this post? tak ada pape pown sebenarnya, sekadar mengisi masa bosan nih. haihh bila nak kerja nih.

ok, sebut pasal kerja, again di--reject for ntah berapa kali dah nih. please dont tell me to give up! fuhh, penat menghantar resume bagai, and ending no callings! and interview pown sudah, and still, REJECT!

ya allah, bantula hamba-Mu ini ya allah..

ok. what happen today? fuhh, best! baru balik from shah alam, and before, me and my friends went to fadhee's sister's house.hehehe and there we ate a lot of foods, like LOTSSSSSSSSS! Hahaha just bayangkan, tengah makan pown suruh tambah2 lagi. after one meal, another came. haha kesian perut, takde diet hari nih. btw, fadhee punye kakak punye masakan memangla TERBAEKKK! thanx so much fadhee and family! hehe

dats all. bye =)

happy holiday to all!

fail sekali takkan fail forever kan?

yes. hari dah fail, bukan sekali but berkali. xpe, sabar2

esok ada lagi 1. if esok fail jugak, confirm balik shah alam!

merajukla, kononnya.

hari ni? ya allah, bosannya yang amat sgt.

bosannye!

what are you doing?

again farah, masih tak sedar diri ke?

cukup2 lah tuh.

interview.

sebab balik beranang, so terpaksalah cari kerja kat sini. yela, takkan nak dok rumah je. makan,tido,makan,tido, lama2 jadi macam panda dalam panda kungfu. adoyai. lagipown my dear, bila nak gune dwet or nak bayar sewa rumah nak cilok mane? nak merompak? takde kemahiran tuh. nak mintak ngn parents? sudah2 la tuh farah menyusahkan diowg.

so. SILA BERDIKARI.

and ahri nih cari la jugak kerja. jumpa kat mcd. mcd baru tuh kat area2 sini. ok, dah ade satu. insyaallah. and another 1 esok interview kat klinik. fuyooo! klinik tuh. gile lari jauh. hahaha

takpela, asalkan dapat kerja kira okla tuh. and farah, ingat je, berjimat cermat. awak tuh boros. sgt2. sedar diri ye.

mengantokla pulak. bye.

.

abissss!

yeah! finally, abis pown exam. lega nyeeeee. walaupown tadi punye paper macam teeetttt* tapi tak kesah sebab tak sabar nak abis exam. susah macam mane pown malas nak pikir dah sebab last paper. yg penting, fuhhhhh!

balik baiduri, kemas sebab kene tukar bilik of course. so bilik yg tuh la, yg agak2 bermasalah, macam tuannye. penat gile. dok angkut semua barang2, harta khazanah entah tahun bile punya, angkut jugak. and sekarang settle my part. tapi ruang tamu, oh emm geee! sangatla berhabuk. dahla takleh habuk2 nih. hidung pown gatal la, macam bese. and now, helloooooo new room!

okla, penat da. cepat2 pi mandi, nak balik rumah. yeahhh!

en.tiang lampu, saya dah abis exam. taknak msg saya ke? =p

.

nasib badan

well, nampaknya aku tergolong dalam golongan orang terbuang. means that, im one of that people yg membawa masalah in this house. tak terasa pown but entahla. lumrah kehidupan memang macam nih kan?

even though kita rase baik or rapat macam mane pown dengan orang tuh, it doesnt mean that orng tuh pown feel the same way.

in that room, theres two people. bukan nak cakap diowg nih teruk or watsoever, but yes, kami menyedekahkan pahala kat diowg. so it means that, the same thing will happen to me, kan?

takpelah, terima je, dah nasib badan, ape boleh buat. nak keluar dari rumah nih? ikutkan hati memang nak, tapi for what? for certain people yg buat kita tak selesa dok rumah nih? memang takla.

its ok la. praktikal nanti dok umah sendiri je. cari tempat kat sana. senang. takyah nak rase ape2.

oh ya, selamat hari ibu. i love u mak!

aihh.

ya allah, aku mohon pada-Mu, lindungi la kami daripada malapetaka, lindungi lah kami daripada perkara yg keji dan mungkar.

ya allah, berikanlah kepada rahmat-Mu dan perlindungan-Mu ya allah.

sesungguhnya aku hamba-Mu yg lemah

dilemma

balik rumah, kerja kat sana but i cant earn much money

OR

dok here, kerja kat sini and i can earn much money.

oh my~ sangat2 dalam dilema sekarang

here, banyakkkkk expenses keluar. besenya kalow dok sorang2.

there, lesssssss expenses keluar. sebab? makan minum provided.

sana, jumpa family everyday la kan. of course

sini, i miss my mom!

aihhh! benci la macam nih

.

fuhhh.lega

poyo. not 100% lega pown sebab far430 belom habis lagi ok. tapi macam malas nyeee nak study. so kita lek lek lu. so malam nih marathon movie lagi. so cerita ape ye? *konon nak tgk, sat g separuh pown tak abis, dah tukar cerita lain.*

ha, let me story story pasal exam tadi. TAX490. ade theory, of course la kan. kitowg nih depends la jigak sikit2 kat soalan spot. konon nye la keluar reit or labuan offshore. budget tgk gitu2 je la. tup tup, oh emm gee!! budget yg keluar. hampagas betol la. dok dalam tuh takleh jawab, so kira la bajet2 bape la markah boleh dapat utk A. makkkkk, susahnyeeee! adoyai.

keluar je dewan, sume dok mengeluh, sedih2 sebab tak dapat jawab, include me. dah tuh, purse tggl dalam dewan. terbaekkk!

dahla. benci.

bye.

inactive

tido pukul 3++ then pukul 9 dah bangun. no wonder la mata macam nak meletup da nih.

xpe2, lagi 2 papers je lagi. pastu hooray! merdeka! wahhhh~

ok.nak cakap bende lain.

kadang2, no matter how happy the person is, kita tak tahu happy tuh sekadar nak tutup segala mcm masalah or dia betol2 happy. kan?

it will be sooooooo great if dapat jadi mcm yg pertama tuh. happy but dalam hati takde sape yg tahu. bajet macam takde masalah padahal mcm nak gile dok pikir masalah tuh.

aihhh~

dah, pi study.

tik tok tik tok

fuhhh. dah pukul 3.15am. its MORNING my dear.

dah2, stop everything, pi tido laaaa!

siang nanti continue with tax. this subject best but ade certain topics yg agak mencabar. no, not certain, one and only one topic yg mencabar. besides all the theories tuh la kan. memang tak dapat den nolong aihh.

kenapa sejak dua menjak nih tak suka subject membaca eh? sedangkan, i used to be a student yg kene hafal byk2 tuh. mungkin da tak serasi kowt *konon la kan* alasan betol la. haha

tengok novel yg kemas tersusun tu *again, kononnye la kan* teringat pulak kat my friend's friend.

dear my friend's friend,

cepat2la pulangkan novel2 tuh ye. i miss them so much =p

dah, stop mengarut2 dan silalah berangkat ke kamar tidur ye cik farah.

and awak, encik tiang lampu, cepat2 sembuh ye =)

bye.

hero

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

Chorus
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face your world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

Chorus

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

and yes, you are my hero encik tiang lampu =)

.

where?

where are you mr.tiang lampu?

lamanye menghilang?

perasan

Tiada puisi atau lagu
Tiada potret tiada ragu
Yang dapat ku ilham seindahmu
Nyata kau satu dalam berjuta
Wahai jelita kau istimewa

Walau ku kembara sedunia
Walau ketemu ramai wanita
Nyata kau tiada tandingannya
Seikhlas hati aku menyinta
Kau istimewa, teristimewa

Daku berikrar
Wahai maharaniku
Bina mahligai syahdu
Hanya engkau dan aku di situ

Tiada mimpi atau fantasi
Tiada rasa lebih berseri
Semekar murni hatimu sayang
Siang dan malam, aku terbayang
Kau istimewa, buat ku tenang

Daku berikrar
Wahai maharaniku
Bina mahligai syahdu
Hanya engkau dan aku di situ

Ingin ku bawa kau ke awana
Ingin memadu kasih asmara
Sepanjang hayatku curah cinta
Sebenar-benar ucapan kata
Kau istimewa oh! Percayalah
Ku perlu cinta dari wanitaku nan istimewa
Beriku cintamu nan istimewa

ok. itu lirik lagu. tetiba sangat minat lagu nih. actually dari dulu minat, cuma sekarang bertambah minat. tak ada apa2 yg special yg menyebabkan minat gile2 lagu nih. it just that i love it. bukan sbb ade org nyanyikan or watsoever la kan.

and pernah la berangan konon2 berharapla one day someone will sing this song special for me. awww. berangan sangat. dalam mimpi pown belom tentu ade org nak nyanyikan. haha.

ok, farah. stop. sila sambung ibm yg tergendala tuh gara2 brain yg konon nye 'full' la sgt.

ibm ibm ibm.

bye.

kemestian

namamu menjadi satu kemestian dalam doaku saban hari hinggakan aku terlupa berdoa utk diri sendiri

sighh~

you!

yes you. cepat2 sembuh ye. sy sentiasa doakan awak.

well, you know who you are. dah bookmark blog sy? haha =D

you

i miss that time. bila kita msg n msg n msg because thats the only thing we can do kn?

im so happy to have you as my very best friend

=D